The River

To many Native American cultures, rivers are more than water.

They are sacred places that give life.

In ancient stories, it is rivers and waters that are the blood of The Great Spirit.

Rivers are about the movement of emotion.

They invoke peace when you look from the ground, but can be troubling, even dangerous, when one is unaware of the undertow. This is true for any body of water.

In my life, rivers have had deep meaning.

I have done missing person cases. Most of them involved our rivers and waters.

As you can imagine, this stirred deep pain for many, including myself.

As of recent times, I am reminded of the power of the river and its connection to emotion.

For most of my life I have had breathing problems. I was diagnosed with asthma as a little kid.

It feels like you are drowning in water.

Ironically, I almost drowned in a river when I fell out of a boat as a little kid. 

Problems with our lungs are related to grief.

Little did I know just how pertinent this symbolism would be from this point forward in my own life.

Over the last month, I have had some challenging, even scary moments where my day-to-day existence felt as if I was drowning.

It all started when I woke up from a vivid nightmare where I was shot in the chest, and the pain did not go away for several hours, and I feared I was having a heart attack. Over the last several weeks, the pain lessened but the pressure was there and growing.

I went to see my amazing gal at the clinic and the words “pulmonary embolism” pop up.

Certain labs were elevated, indicating this was a real concern.

Yet I knew deep down that wasn’t what was going on.  

Further imaging shows nothing… all clear.

At wits end, I finally asked my “brother from another mother” Ryan for help.

My bro does a special healing technique called SRT. He has done this for me several times to rid myself of the energetic debris I collect as a psychic medium (please visit Ryan’s site at https://www.srtclear.com... He is truly amazing!).

At the point that I asked for help, I was actually scared.

The pressure and shortness of breath was worsening. But I noticed after he cleared me, I was much calmer.

The clearing Ryan did for me allowed me to become aware of a Native American Chief in my energetic periphery. When you are scared, it’s harder to sense those things.

I am reminded of some of the visions I had while trying to heal myself emotionally several months earlier.

I still feel the rope around my neck. There is a line of many men, who’s ropes I need to cut off too.

This vision flashed in front of my face several times. I can still feel it.

I feel the Chief next to me once again. I am brought back in time.

The bodies are in the river.

The pain of their souls bled into the river.  

I feel the pain and the tears of many.

I let the tears flow for a moment.

I can breathe better.

It's not ironic I was born here 100 years later.

What I thought could be a medical problem is likely related to anxiety I had NO IDEA I was experiencing, and oddly, it may be from a past life. My mind felt calm. My body was not. This was confirmed with the use of CBD, as it calmed my body, and the pressure in my chest lessened.

I flash back to the bodies laying in the river.

My lungs tighten up again. My throat feels as if someone is choking me.

I see a vision of the human body and all the blood vessels within it.

This quickly shifts to our beloved planet and all the rivers, lakes and oceans.

The blood vessels carry life force much like the rivers carry the life force for our planet.

In life, most things go with the flow of the river. Only Salmon go against it (go figure, I am a Salmon in Native American astrology). Rivers teach you how to flow with life and how to let your emotions flow and run their course. If you don’t, the energy gets stopped up and shit hits the fan.

I realized I am not doing this. Major lesson learned.

I am so out of touch that I do not even realize I am having anxiety because being in a state of fight or flight has become my norm.

Rivers give life… and when you block that flow, shit piles up.

When a river is blocked, it is a dam.

When a blood vessel is blocked, it is a clot.

Neither situation is good for you… it’s even dangerous.

We are in times where the energies are triggering emotional waves… Spirit is taking apart the dams to restore proper flow.

If you are feeling this now, allow it, don’t stifle it. There is nothing wrong with you (but there will be if you avoid it).

Flow instead of swimming against the current. It is trying to lead you elsewhere.

Stop trying to fix whatever the problem and let it sit for a bit, as the issue likely isn’t what it seems.

Stop “doing” and practice being.

Let the river of life guide you.

With Love,

Becky Costello, Psychic Medium