Is There Anywhere Safe Anymore?

I am not shy about how I have a special place in my heart for our first responders.

I was one.

I married one.

You don’t think your life is on the line when you work for a hospital.

You go there to save life... you don't think someone will take it.

It’s a place to come when people are sick, hurt or scared.

However, there are many who enter that are in a really bad way when they come in.

This creates a tense situation for all involved.

On Christmas, a young woman crossed paths with someone that would alter her future.

On Christmas, a young woman’s family received news you never want to hear… and likely never expected to.

I heard about it the next day… but they didn’t say how bad the injuries were.

I open my computer tonight and it pops up… I don’t know how it got there, because I don’t follow the page.

The line reads: “… she succumbed to the injuries”… the ones she sustained as a security guard when she dealt with an ER patient that Christmas night.

Her smiling face… a picture that was likely taken just hours earlier.

I recognize her eyes and her smile.

I feel guilty that I don’t know why… I have seen so many people over the years.

I remember a time when I was in the ER myself and a scary situation occurred and I had enough awareness to watch the other nurse in the room who was nervous and watching me like a hawk as I talked to the patient… this nurse was never nervous. I remember the patient’s energy as they walked towards me looking for help. There is an uncomfortable, frenetic energy one gives off when they are about ready to snap. If you’ve been there, you know what I am talking about.

It ended my nursing career.

There are times I miss it… but it isn’t the same now as it was back then. I feel it has gotten worse as the divide between those who give care and the ones who tell you how to do it grows wider and wider.  

Shit like this makes the world feel really effing unsafe… a place where you should never have to worry about this.

Tonight, my heart is with all of you first responders… EMS, medical, security/law enforcement and fire… because I understand how you feel when one of your own goes down.  

My heart is with her family, her coworkers and everyone else who loved her.

I hope you will keep them in your heart too.

Rest in Peace Andrea.

Thank you for your service.

With Love,

Becky Costello, Psychic Medium